It's currently past midnight. And I'm awake thinking about you and Isabel and wolves. And strangely enough I want some french toast and a mug filled with chamomile tea. I'm actually really tired and kind of want to sleep, yet I don't feel like surrendering today yet. I think you'd get that. So I decided that I would write you a letter, because I think you of all people will understand my midnight ramblings and because I just finished Sinner and you're on my mind.
     How's Jeremy? And Isabel? Leon? You know I've been thinking, I've lived so close to L.A and yet I haven't seen much of it. Maybe I should take your advice and become a tourist in my own city. After all, how else am I going to see it's pretty facade. I'll keep you posted. I'm listening to High Hopes by Kodaline right now. I think I have a serious thing for sad and depressing songs. But I think you'd like it. It's sad and it's got the melancholy hum that just draw you in. There's no booming bass or synth beats, just some drums, piano and a yearning voice.
      Weird how active your brain can be, even after the whole worlds fast asleep. I'm kind of waiting for some deep thoughts to happen, but my brain is stuck on food and you. Mostly food. This is the moment I wish my house didn't have suck creaky, squeaky floors.
      I know I've said this before, but characters are the voices that bring color in our minds. I read somewhere that sometimes you can even start acting like your favorite characters. I can seriously say that I've channeled my inner Cole St Clair this week. I've been sassy, witty, and been a little sad. I think part of the reason I love you so much, why I connect with you so much, is because you're fucked up and you're trying to fix yourself. For some reason, this week, reading this book I feel a little happy if not a little hopeful. You're trying to put the pieces back together and they might be a little ragged but they're there. And I love you for trying and making it happen. I see you and Isabel working so hard to be happy and be yourselves that it makes me want to try harder too. I'm rooting for you. I hope you're rooting for me too. So thanks for reminding me that it's okay to be sad, to cry, and to be a little messed up. *hugs you*
       I know you probably think this whole letter is a little cheesy, bit random, but hopefully a little endearing and nice. I have this picture of you in my head after your parents came back running away into your bathroom wanting to die. Saying you were born to die. I know you're happy now running out of cars while on the freeway, hanging out with the always fashionable Isabel, and doing music stuff. So for me, as a reader, to watch you go from a very low low to a happy ending, was a happy thing.
      I love how you made me laugh and cry and feel everything imaginable. I got a lot of weird looks in class whenever I laughed so i'm pretty sure people think i'm a little crazy. But that's all right, I was a little bit crazy before I read Sinner. Probably more than a little. So tomorrow i'm going to make myself some french toast and some tea. Shame you and Isabel won't be there with me. I make some killer french toast :).
     So this is it Mr. Cole St. Clair, this is the end of my ramblings. I'm not going to bed yet, but I think I've said all I need to write now. Maybel i'll write you another letter. Maybe this'll be the only one I ever write to you.  I just want to say I love you, keep on being crazy, and stay happy.

What did you guys think of this letter? About Cole St. Clair? 

Love, 

Top Ten Characters I want at my Lunch table

This is actually perfect! I love this weeks theme! I just went back to school two weeks ago and i've been looking forward to this post for a while! So tell me, who would be at your lunch table?

1. 1. Jem Carstairs from The Infernal Devices because he's a sweetheart and an overall amazing person. Definitely would be my best friend!
2. Hermione from the Harry Potter Series because we're both really nerdy and try hard in school. We have similar goals and I feel like we'de get along really 
3. Agustus Waters from TFIOS because I love him and well he's Augustus Waters
4. Schuyler Van Alen from the Blue Bloods Series because she's a bit weird and quirky kind of like me.
5. Charlie from The Perks of Being a Wallflower. He's such a great guy, whose sweet and I really want to give him a hug.
6. Cath from Fangirl because we're both fan girls and are complete and total nerds and are okay with that. 
7. Noah Shaw from the Mara Dyer Series because a)he's super cute b) his accent c) has a really big heart and is really a nice person, if your on his good side. Good looks aside he's a pretty awesome person
8. Cole St Clair from the Shiver Series because I love his humor and I feel like he would make a really great friend. 
9. Tally Youngblood from the Uglies Series because I really liked her in the books and I feel like we could get along really well
10. Adam from If I Stay because he's an amazing talented person. He's one of my favorite characters ever. Plus he can play guitar at lunch!

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Top Ten Characters I Would Want With Me On A Deserted Island

Hello people of Earth!! It's Tuesday which means it's Top Ten Tuesday time! Okay so this week's theme in case you didn't notice the title of this post is top ten book people we would love to be on a deserted island with. I'm so psyched for this week's theme.

1. Meggie from Inkheart. Worst comes to worst she can read us into different worlds. Its a pretty powerful talent that can turn this problem into an adventure!
2. Will Herondale from the Infernal Devices. Will is honestly one of my favorite characters of all time. He's my top choice because a)he would most definitely keep us both alive. b) He would make things interesting and keep us on our toes. 3) He's super cute! Definitely my book crush ;)
3. Hermione Granger from the Harry Potter series. She is the smartest witch of her age and there is no doubt in my mind that she could both keep us both alive as well as figure a way off the Island. Also she's totally kick-ass and she's one of the best characters ever, I mean come on.
4. Rose Hathaway from Vampire Acadamy. If there's one thing that describes Rose perfectly is totally kick-ass. She can handle anything that comes her way. She can survive and work her way through anything, those qualities make her perfect to be my deserted island buddy!(p.s I really hated the movie for the book, but I like this poster i found, save for the pink tinge)
5. Dimitri from Vampire academy.*swoons* He is a surviver. He's been through everything and made it through somewhat intact. A person like Dimitri is definitely someone you want by your side when on an uninhabited island. 
   
6. Katsa from Gracling. I love this series so much! Kasta is one of those characters you just love, yeah she might get annoying but she's still awesome. Her "grace" will come in handy. She's someone i want with me if this ever happens. Because to be honest, me alone on a deserted island....that wouldn't end well. 
7. Four from Divergent. He's in freakin' dauntless there's no way we wouldn't survive. In fact one could say that his faction choice makes him a great option in terms of survival. Also he's extremely swoon worthy!
8. Kishan from the Tiger's Curse series. I love Kishan to death! He's got a bad boy thing going on, but he's super sweet. As for being on a desserted Island, he would be perfect because he can turn into a tiger and protect the both of us as well as hunt. Also he's fun to be around. I don't want to be moping all the time!
9. Niall from the Wicked Lovely Series. Niall is kind, sweet, protective and able to take care of people. He does what needs to be done to survive but doesn't bend his morals just so that he can profit. (I couldn't find a picture of him sorry! so i used the book cover)
10. Noah Shaw from The Mara Dyer Series. I love Noah, he's just so awesome and cute and sweet and bad boy-y and he's got a British accent. As for how long we would survive on the island, i'm not sure. He is a pampered, rich boy and i'm a lazy suburbs girl so probably not long. Good thing he's cute!

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